I spent the evening with friends I thought I would never acquire, around a 'roaring' fire built of wood, paper plates and other random pieces of cardboard and soda cans. Sometime during the night a shower of embers exploded from the fire 'bowl', ignited by little fire crackers. We sat around the fire, we spoke about the trivial things, watched a movie starring most of us, listened to music and ate pizza and drank soda. After a while, we went to another friend's house, and waited in his basement until he came home, then surprised him when he walked down the stairs - he was shocked. We then went to another friend's house and played Murder, a game previously diagrammed. The group of us, Flower, Tophersan, Dirk, AJ aka Mr. Bamboo, Onyx, msCyborg, General Chukamaga laughed and made jokes about each other.
Another turning point, a fork stuck in the Road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go...
Then, it was time for us to leave. I drove AJ home first, followed by msCyborg...and then Onyx. I drove to her house a little under the speed limit. You see, I am leaving for a new location in a day, and I wanted to get as much time as I could to talk with her and just listen as I could before I left her. I'm going to see her later in the day this day, but that will be the last time for a very long time. After I left her house, I was alone in my car.
The moment I turned off of her street, Green Day came on the radio. Good Riddance (I Hope Your Have The Time of Your Life). I frowned the moment I heard the first few chords, but still sang along... thinking all the while. I thought about my friendships, how I hugged everyone who was in that room with me tonight. How I said 'bye' to every single one of them. How I could feel real sadness in some of the hugs, where I hadn't expected to feel anything but another person. And though 'I love you's were thrown about haphazardly this evening, I know for a fact they were true. I'm going to miss them, and I do love them, each one of them.
So take the photographs and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
I continued to drive home, the radio off now, looking at the road, still thinking. Everywhere I looked, there was some sort of relationship. I saw an elderly couple sitting on their front porch. I saw a group of teenagers standing around a 'hang-out' spot... and then I started to see other things. Like, how the glow of one headlight is far less brilliant than two - all alone, it really is not effective. Or how despite having a home, a small dog would rather sit patiently outside, sniffing the night air. Or how the moon, despite its haunting glow is in fact, alone.
It's something unpredictable, but in the End it's Right
I hope you have the time of your Life
However, despite the dog's content attitude outside, there will always be a happy family inside to greet him when he decides to enter. The burnt headlight will be replaced eventually, blinding each oncoming vehicle. And the moon, without the sun's warm glow behind, the moon would remain dark - and we would remain ignorant of the beauty it holds on a clear night.
And like the moon, I would be nothing without the warm love I have from my friends and family. Without them, I would be nothing more than a shell of a being, doomed to remain in a limbo between life and the unknown - not really living, but far from dead.
I'm leaving them all soon. However, if you look close enough, it's very easy to make out the faint outline of the dark side of the moon in the night's sky.
But I'm not...
All I can say is that my name is Jereality. I'm eighteen years old. I'm going to start - no, continue - my life in college...
I guess I'll just say that I had one of the best, most depressing evening of my life. I enjoyed every minute of it.
For what it's worth it was worth All the While
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